If you don't already know, I am a born again Christian who loves Jesus and break beats. I walk the walk the best I can. But I am very unique in that I am a born again Christian in secular music. When I first surrendered, I worked for a Christian company soon after. And I was devastated when God said, "Nope, this ain't it." I was brought back to secular music, and sometimes put in the position to promote music I don't like. But I took this period and prayed with people, for people, and continued to be a light in dark places. I was able to love drug dealers, gang bangers, strippers, ex prisoners, and addicts. I was able to LOVE them and see behind the gang colors of red, blue, and green; behind the "bricks"; behind their tough exterior, and see God's original plan for their lives. Sometimes they couldn't see it. But behind closed doors, I saw amazing, gifted men/women of God...one day that is. I wasn't always patient with them because I knew God wanted more and expected more. BUT now looking back, I see God's loving patience where I wasn't. Too many of us forget God's process and timing. Forgetting that the drug dealer we hate on, could one day pastor a mega church and save thousands of people. That's how God works. And so I accepted the assignment from God. And honestly, I would much rather be with an accountable drug dealer who's attempting change than a perfect Christian anyhow. Perfect people annoy me.
I was always unique and I knew as a child that I was different and set apart. But when I think about my childhood, I LOVED all people. I'd walk to the store for my grandmother to play PICK-IT in Paterson, NJ, and get in trouble for speaking to "winos." Winos, drug dealers, all types of people I had no business talking to. Today, that free spirit is a gift that I can love people who aren't perfect. People who aren't me. But that's what ministry is. It is UNIQUE. It doesn't change your personality, but it does change your character. Ministry doesn't think they're BETTER than people. Like Jesus, you can hang with regular folk. Sinners.
And so, I am a light in dark places. I am not afraid of the dark because it's in the dark where it all started for me. For all of us. Never forget when you surrender WHERE you come from. While the Word instructs us to forget the former things, God didn't mean move forward in pride. God didn't mean for you to be so holy that regular folk can't relate to you. On occasion, I have thought maybe life would be different if I was meant to minister in the church. But no. I like the streets. I like imperfection because it's then you get to see God work and people grow. The problem with the church in many regards is people sit in pews with an "I ARRIVED" attitude. God can't work with that. God is close to the brokenhearted and that's exactly where I want to be.
Jesus Eats with the Sinners, Publicans, Tax Collectors (Mark 2:13-17)
- 13 And he went forth again by the sea side; and all the multitude resorted unto him, and he taught them. 14 And as he passed by, he saw Levi the son of Alphaeus sitting at the receipt of custom, and said unto him, Follow me. And he arose and followed him.
- 15 And it came to pass, that, as Jesus sat at meat in his house, many publicans and sinners sat also together with Jesus and his disciples: for there were many, and they followed him. 16 And when the scribes and Pharisees saw him eat with publicans and sinners, they said unto his disciples, How is it that he eateth and drinketh with publicans and sinners? 17 When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.